不明白的不明白

神经大条的我
属于后知后觉
不明白为什么某些朋友从此不再联络了？
或许我太投入了
不明白总是被人利用使唤般？
或许我太容易被欺负了。
不明白为何爱已成过去？
或许我太天真了。
内心总是被伤害
这一门功课不断在煎熬着我
重重地压着我
动弹不得
不明白人欺人
需要愈合来抵抗我的不明白

淡雾

矇胧的夜 闪烁着求救的讯号
藉由星星之光 点缀这微弱的光点
模糊的关系 介于进退两难
进一步 跌入漩涡里
退一步 各自回到原点里
有年轻的本钱 却情愿让淡雾来掩去他的真实
远走高飞的你 已得偿自由了
站在原地的我 以淡雾掩起自己
一直活在记忆里

Tool to be utilised

Fun are always easy and great to have it..but, it also flee from the moment since it ended.. Busy and busy..totally feels that i am always work more than others.. I dislike people whom are irresponsibility..it means that didn't work till the end once it started.. or maybe i am over-helpful..For me, I seen that certain task is easy once we are willing to try it.. For example, assignments..saying wanna do it together but at the end FFk.. And then saying wanna help but at the end didn't help it and just letting me summarize and finish it for the particular assignments.. Not to say i am stingy and count on my involvement of what have done so much..But, i am also human.. i also have my limitation..i think i almost reach my ultimate limitation... I can endure for this moment but i don't know i can endure till when.. maybe after i flee from this particular environments...
i am tired of doing things of more than yours.. In reality it is unfair for all of us.. You can shout to others by pointing their wrong doings..but without realizing that oneself wrong doing are more crucial..i do not know what i trying to convey when i am trying to be good to others..but certainly i am just trying to be good without any purpose.. Maybe i am scared of judgments at the end of the days.. haizzz... i am drowning into same habits... i wanna change... Not to be a tools of utilisation...