Well, I have back from Rural Counseling Mission (RCM). I joined half way of the mission trip and it is sadly that it ended earlier than I thought. Because the mission trip should be ended at 5 December instead of 30 November. (From 20 November till 5 December). This mission trip really widened my view of rural as it is no electricity at all when it is nighttime. I am lucky enough to visit two places which is Katalirus and Salong. Katalirus is more under-developed as the people are quite pure Murut people and it is part of interior zone for Keningau.
People here can live even just hunting without working and some of their children not even received any proper education. Their concept of living is to fulfill today hunger by hunting for today foods. However, their faiths were strong enough as they are far away for the temptation of the world as it is in highhill. Of course, there are some basic electricity for the counseling activities during nights by bringing along the electricity starter (really forgot what the name is).
Then, we moved to Salong. there are more developed as they have river which can helps them to work and smuggle the foods especially the sugar and salt to Indonesia. I have been bite by an insect which looks like butterfly and caused me allergic which spread over my whole body. It is superb itchy. eventhough, the team has decided to leave the areas as some reason which I am curious about. Probably not because of my sicknesses. There is something touched into my heart where the kids are really need someone whom can guide and care about them. They are genuine and willing to learn even they are not as smart as kids in the city. Cause some of kids are able to memorize some words and even pronounced nicely. Most importantly, they love to have someone entering and teach them something new as they will cry when you are leaving. I think God loves everyone regardless of whom status.
All in all, living in kampong also not a bad idea as you can truly feels the greatness of god in their living. It is simple and near god.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Monday, October 4, 2010
If i were forget whom am i?
Sometimes we need to examined ourself that am we just away from our path that should go? the path that always our responsibility has and what we believe. Maybe its too far from my home that always remembered me that i should worked and what i shall do. Entering university always my goal when i was in Form Six.. Now i have different goal again. I want go somewhere else to work.. SINGAPORE.. As their currency are more higher than Ringgit.. it is quite worth that you live in JB and work in SINGAPORE that earn higher income vice versa.. However, my family needs me so much.. Family expectation and religion goals that hold me back.. I started to think that i should choose which path.. *of course it is too early to think about that*
Self-examine has always hold me back which let me to ponder what should i counted for when there is uncertainty.. Back to basics, i should rely on GOD.. I lost myself as christian.. ALl in mess.. I do not i have endure people wrong doings or negative intention behind their attitude.. Until one of my house mates has pointed out why am i enduring this too much.. In this i lost my dignity.. i lose in the battle of dealing with conflicts.. then thats what happen when i didn't really rely on god.. You might doubt.. When you put God first, god will put YOU FIRST whenever there is happenings.. Thank god! remind me that the way i caring towards people are totally out of control.. Caring while reserving your own dignity.. Everything has limitation and i am over it.
PAST - i am so innocent during my childhood that everyone is GOOD. Being rebellion when i was in secondary school which totally different from my primary school behaviors. * everything happen for a reason i would said thats my behavior* Never wanted to study even taking up tuition which ended up wasting it for my cyber cafe usages.. People jotting down notes but i am chasing my friends whom taken up my belongings. Few years later, some teacher whom bias towards LAST CLASS never wanted to teaching and let us in the class even i wanted to study back as i am regretted for my rebellion behavior. Some teacher even discouraged me to further study in FORM SIX. But i knew GOD always there for me and giving me chance to repent on it. I am so thankful and i shall not return back as i not even pure enough..
I should being good christian in my Daily life. People disappointing me but GOD will never.
For now, i know the way and realised that i should not over care about people.. Human will take for granted.. that's what people said evil but i counted as take for granted. Well, NOW - focus what i should be responsible and pray more.. Care with limitation.. Should list out what i am going to do.. Always improved that i already one step behind people.. *Always think that other people might better than you* thats what your motivation comes from.
FUTURE - let it to gods even i have so many goals to achieve.. but it all depends on GOD.. MOST important as my family said stick with GOD! Without god, i will never stands till now.. When people see my smiles in front, but they will never know what behind me..
Love peace joy~
Self-examine has always hold me back which let me to ponder what should i counted for when there is uncertainty.. Back to basics, i should rely on GOD.. I lost myself as christian.. ALl in mess.. I do not i have endure people wrong doings or negative intention behind their attitude.. Until one of my house mates has pointed out why am i enduring this too much.. In this i lost my dignity.. i lose in the battle of dealing with conflicts.. then thats what happen when i didn't really rely on god.. You might doubt.. When you put God first, god will put YOU FIRST whenever there is happenings.. Thank god! remind me that the way i caring towards people are totally out of control.. Caring while reserving your own dignity.. Everything has limitation and i am over it.
PAST - i am so innocent during my childhood that everyone is GOOD. Being rebellion when i was in secondary school which totally different from my primary school behaviors. * everything happen for a reason i would said thats my behavior* Never wanted to study even taking up tuition which ended up wasting it for my cyber cafe usages.. People jotting down notes but i am chasing my friends whom taken up my belongings. Few years later, some teacher whom bias towards LAST CLASS never wanted to teaching and let us in the class even i wanted to study back as i am regretted for my rebellion behavior. Some teacher even discouraged me to further study in FORM SIX. But i knew GOD always there for me and giving me chance to repent on it. I am so thankful and i shall not return back as i not even pure enough..
I should being good christian in my Daily life. People disappointing me but GOD will never.
For now, i know the way and realised that i should not over care about people.. Human will take for granted.. that's what people said evil but i counted as take for granted. Well, NOW - focus what i should be responsible and pray more.. Care with limitation.. Should list out what i am going to do.. Always improved that i already one step behind people.. *Always think that other people might better than you* thats what your motivation comes from.
FUTURE - let it to gods even i have so many goals to achieve.. but it all depends on GOD.. MOST important as my family said stick with GOD! Without god, i will never stands till now.. When people see my smiles in front, but they will never know what behind me..
Love peace joy~
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Bye Bye....
suprisingly i didnt become so superb sad about the current happenings.
at the beginning was really sad..
but now i have left no tears about that..
what kind of friendship?
i don't care anymore
some of you are just a lie to me..
some of you are just treating me for the sake of treating..
i better relying myself
i have endure it and don't want it anymore..
its freaking lie..
i don't need it anymore
cause i used to don't have any bunch of friends last time.
i tried my best but i gained nothing instead of respect.
there is no more of toleration.
i have enough of it..
just NORMAL friends..
just STRANGER after all..
guess what.
i have my own life back...
get it off from me..
being human if met a human
being devil if met a devil..
and it is time now..
bye bye NGE CHEE YANG
at the beginning was really sad..
but now i have left no tears about that..
what kind of friendship?
i don't care anymore
some of you are just a lie to me..
some of you are just treating me for the sake of treating..
i better relying myself
i have endure it and don't want it anymore..
its freaking lie..
i don't need it anymore
cause i used to don't have any bunch of friends last time.
i tried my best but i gained nothing instead of respect.
there is no more of toleration.
i have enough of it..
just NORMAL friends..
just STRANGER after all..
guess what.
i have my own life back...
get it off from me..
being human if met a human
being devil if met a devil..
and it is time now..
bye bye NGE CHEE YANG
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Karl Max.- my recent search.
On my raya holiday right now.. pretty much wasting my time here... trying my best to catch up my assignments and those studies.. Anyways i have search for interesting info for myself as those update are important for all of us especially students. We need some knowledge which is out of our specialization in our fields.. This is for us to gain some new sights. Karl Max..
I pretty sure sure you guys can find this guys via goggle.. He is famous once upon a time and even now as he advocated that there is Proletariat exist.
Marx believed that, in human history, advances in technology to improve labor productivity, thereby increasing the remaining products, have made it possible to implement in their own brain in the body of the division of labor. Hence, this will create a class whereby labor and higher class of people are in their own category since long ago. This means that everyone has their own value in their own class which their skills and monetary background are their key determinants.
Regarding the issue of class, once produced, it will mark marked antagonistic class interests culture religion and other fields. In this sense, class is sometimes a social category.
This is common trend even Karl Max has no given us that this social category can be diminished with his theory. This is so called demand and supply in social networks in economic terms.
There are several quotes i think it is suitable for us to ponder as well in our genuine relationships. Moreover, we are often moved by our genuine relationships and often hoped for something in return which is the least. I mean the minimum return in order to support our belief in relationships. Well, it is not up to our expectations sometimes. In my opinion, i can said you might need to shed tears or heartbroken in order to get through the tribulations in our life. No pain No gain.. i have enough of it.. but i also thanked for that.
Sincere, very intellectual life of friendship is priceless. Can you unswerving faith in your friend, never to be a worthy of his people, this is your soul, personality, mental and moral so the best test.
Friendship, as pure as the morning fog, flatter, and can not be a friendship can only be faithful to consolidate it.
Friendship boat traveling in the ocean of life can not be plain sailing, and sometimes run into the clouds and storms, in this case, friendship should be the test of this or that, after these dark clouds and storms, then the friendship will consolidate, genuine friendship will shine in any case a new light.
People can not live without friendship, but to achieve genuine friendship is not easy; friendship and loyalty to the total needs of sowing, irrigation with a passion to use the principles to nurture, and understanding to care.
If the struggle is the chance of success in a very smooth to proceed only under the conditions, then creating a bit of world history would be too easy.
I pretty sure sure you guys can find this guys via goggle.. He is famous once upon a time and even now as he advocated that there is Proletariat exist.
Marx believed that, in human history, advances in technology to improve labor productivity, thereby increasing the remaining products, have made it possible to implement in their own brain in the body of the division of labor. Hence, this will create a class whereby labor and higher class of people are in their own category since long ago. This means that everyone has their own value in their own class which their skills and monetary background are their key determinants.
Regarding the issue of class, once produced, it will mark marked antagonistic class interests culture religion and other fields. In this sense, class is sometimes a social category.
This is common trend even Karl Max has no given us that this social category can be diminished with his theory. This is so called demand and supply in social networks in economic terms.
There are several quotes i think it is suitable for us to ponder as well in our genuine relationships. Moreover, we are often moved by our genuine relationships and often hoped for something in return which is the least. I mean the minimum return in order to support our belief in relationships. Well, it is not up to our expectations sometimes. In my opinion, i can said you might need to shed tears or heartbroken in order to get through the tribulations in our life. No pain No gain.. i have enough of it.. but i also thanked for that.
Sincere, very intellectual life of friendship is priceless. Can you unswerving faith in your friend, never to be a worthy of his people, this is your soul, personality, mental and moral so the best test.
Friendship, as pure as the morning fog, flatter, and can not be a friendship can only be faithful to consolidate it.
Friendship boat traveling in the ocean of life can not be plain sailing, and sometimes run into the clouds and storms, in this case, friendship should be the test of this or that, after these dark clouds and storms, then the friendship will consolidate, genuine friendship will shine in any case a new light.
People can not live without friendship, but to achieve genuine friendship is not easy; friendship and loyalty to the total needs of sowing, irrigation with a passion to use the principles to nurture, and understanding to care.
If the struggle is the chance of success in a very smooth to proceed only under the conditions, then creating a bit of world history would be too easy.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
得与失。。
时间只可以用一个字形容：飞。 好像流星酱飞逝。。 好快。。快到我零probability才看到。。
最近很多朋友找我聊心事。。不懂怎么。。可能我样子在加上行为十足一个单纯的人。。 单纯不代表心机。。（不是心机面膜）沉默不语不代表好欺负。。 只是冥冥中有命运的安排。。 在末日，各人要按照自己的所做所想所说得付出代价。。（只有少数人会相信）话说，感情纠纷的朋友终于又和她的ANATA在一起回去。。听说相识已有 18年了。。好久哦。。常常久久总是会纠纷的。。希望他们可以细水长流。。当然其他朋友的心事希望可以听到好消息。。 能听到朋友由衷地说声‘谢谢’两个字，还蛮开心。。虽然有时候会因他人的心事，稍微操心。 不过这是爱心。应该的。。这是本份。。 世界很繁荣很进步，不过人心却是退步。。（只是人们的爱心渐渐冷淡，不法的事逐渐增加。）爱你爱的人不困难，连坏人也会爱他的家人或亲密的人。。 爱你的敌人就不容易。。因为已经把他列入不好的印象。。如何才能做到？主的爱吧。。因为他爱我们先。。所以我们要把这些不配的爱去爱其他人。。
分享：又愿主叫你们彼此相爱的心，并爱众人的心，都能增长、充足，如同我们爱你们一样。」在这里看到爱心需要学习和成长。在社会上也看到一些有爱心的人，有一个警察知道在他管区里有位贫穷人，他就想想自己可以帮点什么？他每天都煮面线带到那户穷人家去，而且每次都煮很多，那户穷人家也每天等这位警察的面线，分成三餐吃，而警察也没什么要求，这户穷人家看到警察不求回报的付出，也勉励自己应该再站起来奋斗，告诉孩子们：要认真，书读不好没关系，但是要认真做好人、能吃苦，想读书或学技术都支持你们。他们没有退还面线，真的借着警察的爱心站起来，扶养孩子长大，直到有一天，他告诉警察：「你不要再送面线来了。」还送一些礼物给警察，警察不收，而且说：「我若收了，这些年我做的都白费了！我以前也很贫穷，受人接济，父母要我们勇敢站起来，所以我长大以后，也是这样对别人。」于是，他们一家人也说以后一定要这样对人。我看到这个新闻，真的很感动，为什么没有信主的人可以这样做到呢？这应该是基督徒最会做，而且是生命的记号才对啊！这样看来，爱心是真的要学习的、要增长的，如果只是爱你自己所爱，不帮助别人，那种算什么爱心呢？这和主耶稣说的不一样喔！有人问到底要做到什么程度才叫做爱？主耶稣回答：「要爱你的仇敌。」这真的不简单
等待。。 一两个钟的等待是很漫长的。。因为可以听了几十首的歌吧。。 当MP3插着你耳朵长达一个小时，耳朵会发脾气的就会痛。。然后长期导致耳膜破损。。就耳聋。。 教会的司机要载很多人的。。尤其是星期六。。 所以我很少会去的。。 大多数是因为等很久的缘故。这次我有等教会车是因为太久没去了。。 等了一个钟。。司机还是忘记我。。 问了人才知道另一个负责人忘记我。 第二次了。。不过这次没有生气。。因为司机或负责人并没有义务来负责我的Transportation的。又可能很多可能性。所以并没有怪他们。他们也很辛苦。。假日还要载我们这些poor学生。还好有一位姐妹愿意载我去。谢谢。。
最近也学到要看轻得与失。不是做为不想尝试新东西的理由。比如：朋友的不真诚，世上的财富。现今有很多娱乐消遣，生活很方便不过要用更多劳力来得到。Nothing is free lunch in this world.. yes.correct. 不过我们的心就越来越空虚。好像无底洞有着一股暗流，不懂何去何从。只要心里富有（和平喜乐平安），财富就会有啦。（有钱没命晒）。
最近很多朋友找我聊心事。。不懂怎么。。可能我样子在加上行为十足一个单纯的人。。 单纯不代表心机。。（不是心机面膜）沉默不语不代表好欺负。。 只是冥冥中有命运的安排。。 在末日，各人要按照自己的所做所想所说得付出代价。。（只有少数人会相信）话说，感情纠纷的朋友终于又和她的ANATA在一起回去。。听说相识已有 18年了。。好久哦。。常常久久总是会纠纷的。。希望他们可以细水长流。。当然其他朋友的心事希望可以听到好消息。。 能听到朋友由衷地说声‘谢谢’两个字，还蛮开心。。虽然有时候会因他人的心事，稍微操心。 不过这是爱心。应该的。。这是本份。。 世界很繁荣很进步，不过人心却是退步。。（只是人们的爱心渐渐冷淡，不法的事逐渐增加。）爱你爱的人不困难，连坏人也会爱他的家人或亲密的人。。 爱你的敌人就不容易。。因为已经把他列入不好的印象。。如何才能做到？主的爱吧。。因为他爱我们先。。所以我们要把这些不配的爱去爱其他人。。
分享：又愿主叫你们彼此相爱的心，并爱众人的心，都能增长、充足，如同我们爱你们一样。」在这里看到爱心需要学习和成长。在社会上也看到一些有爱心的人，有一个警察知道在他管区里有位贫穷人，他就想想自己可以帮点什么？他每天都煮面线带到那户穷人家去，而且每次都煮很多，那户穷人家也每天等这位警察的面线，分成三餐吃，而警察也没什么要求，这户穷人家看到警察不求回报的付出，也勉励自己应该再站起来奋斗，告诉孩子们：要认真，书读不好没关系，但是要认真做好人、能吃苦，想读书或学技术都支持你们。他们没有退还面线，真的借着警察的爱心站起来，扶养孩子长大，直到有一天，他告诉警察：「你不要再送面线来了。」还送一些礼物给警察，警察不收，而且说：「我若收了，这些年我做的都白费了！我以前也很贫穷，受人接济，父母要我们勇敢站起来，所以我长大以后，也是这样对别人。」于是，他们一家人也说以后一定要这样对人。我看到这个新闻，真的很感动，为什么没有信主的人可以这样做到呢？这应该是基督徒最会做，而且是生命的记号才对啊！这样看来，爱心是真的要学习的、要增长的，如果只是爱你自己所爱，不帮助别人，那种算什么爱心呢？这和主耶稣说的不一样喔！有人问到底要做到什么程度才叫做爱？主耶稣回答：「要爱你的仇敌。」这真的不简单
等待。。 一两个钟的等待是很漫长的。。因为可以听了几十首的歌吧。。 当MP3插着你耳朵长达一个小时，耳朵会发脾气的就会痛。。然后长期导致耳膜破损。。就耳聋。。 教会的司机要载很多人的。。尤其是星期六。。 所以我很少会去的。。 大多数是因为等很久的缘故。这次我有等教会车是因为太久没去了。。 等了一个钟。。司机还是忘记我。。 问了人才知道另一个负责人忘记我。 第二次了。。不过这次没有生气。。因为司机或负责人并没有义务来负责我的Transportation的。又可能很多可能性。所以并没有怪他们。他们也很辛苦。。假日还要载我们这些poor学生。还好有一位姐妹愿意载我去。谢谢。。
最近也学到要看轻得与失。不是做为不想尝试新东西的理由。比如：朋友的不真诚，世上的财富。现今有很多娱乐消遣，生活很方便不过要用更多劳力来得到。Nothing is free lunch in this world.. yes.correct. 不过我们的心就越来越空虚。好像无底洞有着一股暗流，不懂何去何从。只要心里富有（和平喜乐平安），财富就会有啦。（有钱没命晒）。
Sunday, August 22, 2010
T.T
Maybe i am not good enough..
i am used to it that friends abandoned me..
i am so sorry..
and i am hurt as well..
........
T.T
i am used to it that friends abandoned me..
i am so sorry..
and i am hurt as well..
........
T.T
Friday, August 20, 2010
我很傻...T.T
以为只要逃离现场
我会好过一点。。
很可惜，并没有
很想放开旧的自己
越挣扎越迷惘
看到你很幸福的样子
我是替你高兴
不开心自己还停留在我们纯纯的回忆
进退两难。。
有时候
感情很难收回来。。
不知是为了什么。。
我真的不懂
我的心灵固然愿意但我的肉体却不能服从我心灵
只是感觉到疼痛与煎熬的滋味。。
Cant nobody do like you
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you
I am officially missing U.....
T.T
我会好过一点。。
很可惜，并没有
很想放开旧的自己
越挣扎越迷惘
看到你很幸福的样子
我是替你高兴
不开心自己还停留在我们纯纯的回忆
进退两难。。
有时候
感情很难收回来。。
不知是为了什么。。
我真的不懂
我的心灵固然愿意但我的肉体却不能服从我心灵
只是感觉到疼痛与煎熬的滋味。。
Cant nobody do like you
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there’s something I just can’t do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can’t find a way to let go of you
I am officially missing U.....
T.T
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
浑浊
街边的路灯
蒙胧霓暗
与知音的相遇
忽近忽远
明明是一层纱
却似是一层山
或许源始于最初的遗憾
没有太多的灼伤
偶而的 淡淡忧愁
若是纯友谊的情感
被安全感掳获
不会再执迷不悟
一切都是陌生而鲜艳的，
一切都是梦想而丰富的，
一切都在教科书之外，
在思想之外，
正是浑浊感受。
蒙胧霓暗
与知音的相遇
忽近忽远
明明是一层纱
却似是一层山
或许源始于最初的遗憾
没有太多的灼伤
偶而的 淡淡忧愁
若是纯友谊的情感
被安全感掳获
不会再执迷不悟
一切都是陌生而鲜艳的，
一切都是梦想而丰富的，
一切都在教科书之外，
在思想之外，
正是浑浊感受。
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Hand-made
it has been four years i didnt really do some hand-made making.. basically just wanna do something memorable as my final year is coming.. and i afraid i might lose this passion to do this kinda thingy..
In fact, did it looks like sissy? omg! seems like too childish i assumed...
In fact, did it looks like sissy? omg! seems like too childish i assumed...
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Officially missing you
Well, maybe its too free.. Memories..kept on rolling on my head and mind.. My mind cant stop when i was alone.. i don't really wanna play games or kept on watching drama unless i was on the mood.. i guess i am moody.. Or aging i think.. Too much happenings or my growing up just too abundant...
' Can nobody do it just like you '.. there is always nobody can replaced you as i closed my heart..
cause i feel this pain cant go away..away.i want it be away...
trying best not to state in my mind again..
.... today, i am officially MISSING U..
' Can nobody do it just like you '.. there is always nobody can replaced you as i closed my heart..
cause i feel this pain cant go away..away.i want it be away...
trying best not to state in my mind again..
.... today, i am officially MISSING U..
Friday, June 11, 2010
하 나님은 너를 지키시는 자
Translation: (God your protector)
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God your protector
He protects you day and night
Leading you like the sun in the day and moon in the night
His love surrounds you
God your protector
He has listened to your troubles and sorrows
You should have faith in Him
That God will protect you
For He is higher than the mountain
Deeper than the sea
As He is the Lord who creates heaven and earth.
翻译：（上帝，你的保护神）
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上 帝，你的保护神
他日夜保护你
就如太阳在白天和月亮在夜晚保护你
他的爱围绕着你
上帝，你的保护神
他听取了 你的苦诉和痛苦
你要对他有信心
上帝必定保护你
因为上帝高于山
深于海
因为他是谁创造了天地的真神！
하 나님은 너를 지키시는 자 (God Your Protector/上帝，你的保护神)
PS: suddenly i so miss that time because it was so simple and genuine.. cant turn back the time... the only thing can do is to preserve myself..
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God your protector
He protects you day and night
Leading you like the sun in the day and moon in the night
His love surrounds you
God your protector
He has listened to your troubles and sorrows
You should have faith in Him
That God will protect you
For He is higher than the mountain
Deeper than the sea
As He is the Lord who creates heaven and earth.
翻译：（上帝，你的保护神）
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上 帝，你的保护神
他日夜保护你
就如太阳在白天和月亮在夜晚保护你
他的爱围绕着你
上帝，你的保护神
他听取了 你的苦诉和痛苦
你要对他有信心
上帝必定保护你
因为上帝高于山
深于海
因为他是谁创造了天地的真神！
하 나님은 너를 지키시는 자 (God Your Protector/上帝，你的保护神)
PS: suddenly i so miss that time because it was so simple and genuine.. cant turn back the time... the only thing can do is to preserve myself..
What is my FYP topics?
should i do FYP instead of practical training? i am on dilemma and i wanna quit the so called job.. i cant overcome my inner part! hope there is a way out... pray harder or else i will be insane i think...lol... whatever it is i still have to enjoy it... no matter pain or happy! ^.^
Saturday, June 5, 2010
原谅我没有说
停住了从前停不住时间
离别后秋天赶走夏天
看着雨点冷冷地坠落路面
给跌碎的心愿
首次约会的餐厅已歇业
被遗弃在真空的世界
终於相爱已比分开遥远
那面玻璃像潮湿的脸
原谅我没有说最爱你的是我
予取予求又把温柔当附和
原谅我没有说我给你的并不多
拥有过却没有把握
雨停了接近透明的蓝天
像从来没有那麽愉悦
终於相爱已比分开遥远
终於再见变成了谎言
原谅我没有说最爱你的是我
予取予求又把温柔当附和
原谅我没有说我给你的并不多
拥有过以为没什麽
用倔强来包裹脆弱
用自由来等同不寂寞
我难过才晓得你说的不难过
是强行放手强行挣脱
原谅我没有说最爱你的是我
予取予求又把温柔当附和
原谅我没有说我给你的并不多
拥有过以为没什麽
首次约会的餐厅已歇业
被遗弃在真空的世界
终於相爱已比分开遥远
那面玻璃像潮湿的脸
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
五月的天空
雨纷纷。。 就像天空哭过的痕迹。。
灰灰的。。 毫无生气
我不哭泣。。。
只是习惯性的回忆着
有时看见一些之前拥有的溺爱
只想再一次依稀的体会
没有你的日子 都已习惯了。。
或许这是得也是失。。
失去过才能真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
因为能让人一夜长大。。。
有人说：人是善忘的
我想我还是忘不了这些点点滴滴。。。
虽离别但我心中永远总会留下你的笑容。。
灰灰的。。 毫无生气
我不哭泣。。。
只是习惯性的回忆着
有时看见一些之前拥有的溺爱
只想再一次依稀的体会
没有你的日子 都已习惯了。。
或许这是得也是失。。
失去过才能真正懂得去珍惜和拥有
因为能让人一夜长大。。。
有人说：人是善忘的
我想我还是忘不了这些点点滴滴。。。
虽离别但我心中永远总会留下你的笑容。。
Monday, April 26, 2010
missing you for 12 years
i miss you badly..
bittersweet memories
12 years
didnt went there often
doesnt mean i forgotten you as i put you in my hearts
bitter sweet memories
that's all taking with me
i will always love you...
i am not alone..
i am not pity..
cause your love with me...
bittersweet memories
12 years
didnt went there often
doesnt mean i forgotten you as i put you in my hearts
bitter sweet memories
that's all taking with me
i will always love you...
i am not alone..
i am not pity..
cause your love with me...
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
重新。。。
重新什么呢？ 重新写回我的日记。。 我的点点滴滴。。
虽然不是很精彩 但是我总是有去试试看的态度。。
原来已经荒废我的日记已有一年多。。 写日记的感觉是蛮扎实的。。
手心里的温度。。 回忆在字迹里往血液里流窜。。。
有时很高兴
有时心情像飞机降落得谷底般。。
有时怜悯别人的不幸
有时羡慕别人的幸福。。
就算是微小单纯的幸福也是可贵的。。。
日记日记。。。在一次的记录我的生活的一点一滴。。
在幸福被绑架之前。。。
虽然不是很精彩 但是我总是有去试试看的态度。。
原来已经荒废我的日记已有一年多。。 写日记的感觉是蛮扎实的。。
手心里的温度。。 回忆在字迹里往血液里流窜。。。
有时很高兴
有时心情像飞机降落得谷底般。。
有时怜悯别人的不幸
有时羡慕别人的幸福。。
就算是微小单纯的幸福也是可贵的。。。
日记日记。。。在一次的记录我的生活的一点一滴。。
在幸福被绑架之前。。。
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
积极我的人生
不会在原地旋转。。
珍惜我身边的一切。。
努力灵修自己
用心再用心...来体会人生。。
一切的不如意都用平常心对待，，，
这是人生。。
学到就会得到。。
从心开始。。
因为一生的果效都由心而出。。
我要加油。。。
Love Life~
珍惜我身边的一切。。
努力灵修自己
用心再用心...来体会人生。。
一切的不如意都用平常心对待，，，
这是人生。。
学到就会得到。。
从心开始。。
因为一生的果效都由心而出。。
我要加油。。。
Love Life~
Saturday, February 27, 2010
恶性循环
虽然是输，但我并没有难过。。 只是想借题发挥。。
想挥霍重复的软弱。。 因为心痛总是来得太清醒了。。
你的任性并没有改变。。 只是蓄势待发。。
然后爆炸。。 我是还好。。但妈妈又。。。
一次又一次。。。 重重复复。。。 很烦！！ 很反感。。。
多次赋予你的机会并没有挽回你的回头是岸。。
以为你会就此改变，原来你的毅力总是向你的软弱低头。。
所以没有期待人们的承诺。。
我很无奈。。也很无助。。 就像前面的路被很多很多的荆棘挡住了。。
我很想逃但也不行。。 我不能自私。。
并没有因为远距离而自在。。
请为我们设想。。 我还想活下去。。。
想挥霍重复的软弱。。 因为心痛总是来得太清醒了。。
你的任性并没有改变。。 只是蓄势待发。。
然后爆炸。。 我是还好。。但妈妈又。。。
一次又一次。。。 重重复复。。。 很烦！！ 很反感。。。
多次赋予你的机会并没有挽回你的回头是岸。。
以为你会就此改变，原来你的毅力总是向你的软弱低头。。
所以没有期待人们的承诺。。
我很无奈。。也很无助。。 就像前面的路被很多很多的荆棘挡住了。。
我很想逃但也不行。。 我不能自私。。
并没有因为远距离而自在。。
请为我们设想。。 我还想活下去。。。
Thursday, February 25, 2010
脱口而出。。
不是想隐瞒或玩躲咪咪游戏。。 只是讲太多我又怕人家以为我在博同情。。 也不想历史重演。。 太多的真心对话。。 确是让我很阴影。。 只好搞笑来隐藏自己。。
相信每个人都有属于自己的故事。。
很多不堪回首的过去。。 我也渐渐的遗忘。。
或许我很想忘记吧... 但我也感谢它的出现让我遇见更好的人。。。
也许应该记住它 来提醒自己。。 不该重犯。。
哦。。 我在想我的搞笑如果真的到大家，就请原谅了。。。 因为这是我的过渡期。。
相信每个人都有属于自己的故事。。
很多不堪回首的过去。。 我也渐渐的遗忘。。
或许我很想忘记吧... 但我也感谢它的出现让我遇见更好的人。。。
也许应该记住它 来提醒自己。。 不该重犯。。
哦。。 我在想我的搞笑如果真的到大家，就请原谅了。。。 因为这是我的过渡期。。
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
若是梦，至少那是我曾经做过的梦
是否我应该保留？
应该再给自己一些空间
不是什么事都可以无所谓
若是无所谓 那是已经放弃了
所以才无所谓
见证人性的丑陋
留给自己一双翅膀
但愿会因此远走高飞
事与愿违
我的世界已被摧毁
摸黑找不到路的方向
一如往常的我
却住着頹廢的自己
梦醒时分祈求忘了自己是谁
若是梦，至少那是我曾经做过的梦
应该再给自己一些空间
不是什么事都可以无所谓
若是无所谓 那是已经放弃了
所以才无所谓
见证人性的丑陋
留给自己一双翅膀
但愿会因此远走高飞
事与愿违
我的世界已被摧毁
摸黑找不到路的方向
一如往常的我
却住着頹廢的自己
梦醒时分祈求忘了自己是谁
若是梦，至少那是我曾经做过的梦
Saturday, February 6, 2010
新年快乐
忙忙忙！有太多的事情等着我。。 想要搞好econs night就收山了。。 有三个 assignment 我是做leader... 显掉！！ 明明大家连我都不会的事，为什么会是我会？我也不会。。但还是学啊。。 不想计较酱多了。。 下次选好 assignment-mate.. 新年了。。 可是没什么心情。。只是想着如何快点做好assignment 和mid-term.. 但是我还是很想吃肉干。。 可能跟小时候的记忆有关吧。。 犹记得您常在年三十晚与我们一起边看电视边吃着肉干。。。
因为想念，所以才不断的想吃肉干。。
物在此。但情已远走高飞。。
新年了，新希望。。 最重要还是与家人团聚。。
因为想念，所以才不断的想吃肉干。。
物在此。但情已远走高飞。。
新年了，新希望。。 最重要还是与家人团聚。。
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Year -2010
New year which means that i am older.. Older le means i have to be mature.. Even i have to be more mature but my sampat-ness to cheer up atmosphere is still around. Just realize that my family are relying me to do some official stuff which they can hardly understand the procedure and those documents..So guess i have to do for them.. Have to be more mature thinking and try not to think so much.. oh ya i must forgot to rely on God through prayer.. It is crucial things i have to fulfilled.. Here is something i wanna fulfilled..
1. Able to bear some responsibility without any murmurs
2. To build up relationship with god through prayerful life.
3. Must work hard while playing hard.
4. To talk slowly with people which is really get all things clearly before judging.
5. Of course to save as much money as i can.. *time to apply my financial management theory*
6. To keep my promise to family which is taking more care about my health * sleep early before 2am [hopefully la] and eat well.. [ stupid habits]
7. Learn to appreciate the moment and let go of someone already give up of us.
8. To love the people around me as God loved us everyday..[ trying my bestest]
hopefully i can fulfilled it and wish all the best to you guys as well...
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