If i were forget whom am i?

Sometimes we need to examined ourself that am we just away from our path that should go? the path that always our responsibility has and what we believe. Maybe its too far from my home that always remembered me that i should worked and what i shall do. Entering university always my goal when i was in Form Six.. Now i have different goal again. I want go somewhere else to work.. SINGAPORE.. As their currency are more higher than Ringgit.. it is quite worth that you live in JB　and work in SINGAPORE that earn higher income vice versa.. However, my family needs me so much.. Family expectation and religion goals that hold me back.. I started to think that i should choose which path.. *of course it is too early to think about that*

Self-examine has always hold me back which let me to ponder what should i counted for when there is uncertainty.. Back to basics, i should rely on GOD.. I lost myself as christian.. ALl in mess.. I do not i have endure people wrong doings or negative intention behind their attitude.. Until one of my house mates has pointed out why am i enduring this too much.. In this i lost my dignity.. i lose in the battle of dealing with conflicts.. then thats what happen when i didn't really rely on god.. You might doubt.. When you put God first, god will put YOU FIRST whenever there is happenings.. Thank god! remind me that the way i caring towards people are totally out of control.. Caring while reserving your own dignity.. Everything has limitation and i am over it.

PAST - i am so innocent during my childhood that everyone is GOOD. Being rebellion when i was in secondary school which totally different from my primary school behaviors. * everything happen for a reason i would said thats my behavior* Never wanted to study even taking up tuition which ended up wasting it for my cyber cafe usages.. People jotting down notes but i am chasing my friends whom taken up my belongings. Few years later, some teacher whom bias towards LAST CLASS never wanted to teaching and let us in the class even i wanted to study back as i am regretted for my rebellion behavior. Some teacher even discouraged me to further study in FORM SIX. But i knew GOD always there for me and giving me chance to repent on it. I am so thankful and i shall not return back as i not even pure enough..

I should being good christian in my Daily life. People disappointing me but GOD will never.

For now, i know the way and realised that i should not over care about people.. Human will take for granted.. that's what people said evil but i counted as take for granted. Well, NOW - focus what i should be responsible and pray more.. Care with limitation.. Should list out what i am going to do.. Always improved that i already one step behind people.. *Always think that other people might better than you* thats what your motivation comes from.

FUTURE - let it to gods even i have so many goals to achieve.. but it all depends on GOD.. MOST important as my family said stick with GOD! Without god, i will never stands till now.. When people see my smiles in front, but they will never know what behind me..

Love peace joy~